Many people have asked us when and how we decided to adopt so I decided to blog about it -starting at the very beginning.
Adoption is something Kevin and I have talked about for a long time. . . even before we had any of our girls. At the time, however, it was just a “someday” thought. Over the last several years, adoption was something that was on my heart especially, but as each of the girls were born, we focused on supporting other adoptive families in various ways.
About a year ago, the calling to adopt – for us – became a little more specific and a little louder. We both felt a nudging – something we, again, talked about but just sort of pushed it to the side, saying, “If it happens, it happens.” I don’t know, maybe I thought God would just drop a child into our laps. Then as we would pray for other adoptive families, Norah would say, “We could do that” or “When are we going to adopt?”
I think the nudge turned to a shove one Sunday when we heard a sermon on Matthew 14:22-33. If you have never read these verses, I encourage you to do so. This is the section that talks about Jesus walking on the water. Peter saw Jesus, stepped out onto the water, and began walking to Jesus. When he doubted, he began to sink. Jesus reached out and caught him. Several things really spoke to us in this sermon. 1 – I want to stay safely in the boat and watch the miracles from a distance. Do NOT ask me to step foot outside the boat – I KNOW I will sink. Someone else can do it and I will sit back and enjoy their “story.” 2 – I am full of doubt. Why step out to begin with if I think, before I even step out, that I will sink?
To those doubts, Pastor Terry reminded us that Peter KNEW it is better to be with God out of the boat than to be in the boat without Him. We know a lot of people will wonder what in the world we are doing when we already of 3 kids and are very busy. They will think we should stay in the boat, but, as Pastor Terry also reminded us, God saved us so we could live in an adventure of faith. What are we doing in faith?
After church that day, Kevin and I talked and we both knew that God was doing something in both of us. “Shoving” us in the right direction, maybe. We do know – like Peter – doubts will come. We will just have to trust that God will see us through.
Back to the child dropping in our laps – so we know God was calling us, but still just said “when it happens, it happend. We just have to be patient.”
I read a commentary recently by Warren Wiersbe on Colossians, “We must never think that patience is complacency. Patience is endurance in action. It is not the Christian sitting in a rocking chair, waiting for God to do something. It is the soldier on the battlefield, keeping on when the going is tough. It is the runner on the racetrack, refusing to stop because he wants to win the race.” As a runner, the end of that quote really stuck out to me. After I have spent months training for a race, I don’t quite at the hardest part of the run. I KEEP going because I have trained and I want to finish.
Same thing goes for us as Christians. God has been preparing Kevin and I separately and as a couple for a long time to be obedient to whatever He calls us to do. Why would we quit now – just because this is bigger than we expected?
Another Sunday, Pastor Terry said, “Sometimes we have to carry God’s plan before it comes to fruition.” We had to step back and ask ourselves, in regard to this calling to adopt: Are we living the life God has called us to or are we sitting back just waiting for something to happen.
At this point Kevin and I both knew that adoption is something God wants for our family. We know that it is not an easy process – there will be trials but we also know that if Christ has called us to do this, He will carry us to the end. Our job is to trust His plan.